It have been a while from the last time i went to Perth.
Emmm... almost a year ago.
I thought i will be ok. That's why i swappep for this flight.
I was over extimated myself.
Before i go, everything looks fine with me.
Feeling only started overwhelming when i reached the airport.
Familiar places, familiar foods, familiar time...
Memories...
I thought about him. About those time.
Can't believe after so long i still can't get rid of it...
Don't get me wrong, not because of affection, to me, it's just a memories.
Met up with Jaclyn for brunch.
It was great!
It's always good to meet up with friends in outport.
Especially from the same hometown.
Well, Jac did update me about him.
She told me about he is loosing his walk with God.
He is treating Christianity as a lifestyle.
Going church or Cell group is just being in the circle of friends.
Nothing surprise me.
I will never forget what he said to me after we broke off.
I asked him whether the new girlfriend is a christian.
Guess what he said?!
I thought he will say, he will try to bring her to church or something like that.
But...
He said, IS THIS MATTER?! IS THIS IMPORTANT?!
*sigh*
I was so heart broken when i heard that.
Because that makes me think that when we were together, he was just PRETEND to be a good christian.
I still can't believe someone will used God to impress a girl.
It was me being too naive or he was very DARING.
How can he used God?!
Well, i realize i was being very bitter.
When i heard about his update from Jaclyn.
I should be praying for him.
But, i can't.
I think he don't deserve it.
I was so bitter, until i think he don't deserve salvation also.
Wow!! That's so wrong!
Thank God that He reminded me that i was also a sinner before.
Do i deserve salvation!?
Salvation is come from the grace of God.
If he don't deserve, neither do i.
Thank you Jesus for stretching me once again.
I'm now 'WIDER' than before.
Lord, I just want to up hold him unto your hand.
By God's grace, he will one day found his path with You.
Amen!
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
Release and receive
It had been a while from the last time i wrote my blog.
Just came back from Penang. Been working really hard this month.
Almost flying everyday, but all to Malaysia only.
Quite cool actually, because i got all my allowances in Ringgit.
Not bad actually.
Anyway, something happen recently.
I'm quite cool about being single for quite some time already.
I'm actually beginning to enjoy it.
But, not tonight.
After we talked in MSN, actually gave me quite some thoughts.
Hoping to meet him, but in the same time afraid being emo.
Brought along alot of worries and hope to operate the flight to Penang.
All i got is TEARS and ANGER.
Gave me empty promises that you will LOVE TO MEET?!
Bullshit la...
Not even inform me that you are not coming.
To be honest, i'm totally cool about this.
I'm not disappointed the fact that we are not meeting.
I just very pissed off by his email.
How can he be so selfish?!
When he was emo, he can just come and blast all to me.
But, when he is feeling OK, he asked me not to be misunderstand on what he said.
The best part is, he think i'm CHANGED to a better person.
BUT...
He don't think i'm being the REAL me!
He was WONDER what is REAL in me?!
HELLO~~~
What is your problem?!
I couldn't help but being so bitter.
Instead of cursing over him, i chose to cried out to God.
Tears just can't help but falling...
Thank God for everything had happen.
I read this in Joel Osteen's blog.
'Release and Receive'.
It's a story about a woman released her burden to God.
She actually visualize those 'burden balloons' being release one by one to God.
I'm going to do the same.
I will release my burden to God.
Received a fresh portion of God's strength to face each day.
I just need to kept reminding myself that God's blessing has always in store for my future!!
People don't believe, nevermind.
I know God has done a wonderful things in my life.
Amen! Thank you, Jesus.
Just came back from Penang. Been working really hard this month.
Almost flying everyday, but all to Malaysia only.
Quite cool actually, because i got all my allowances in Ringgit.
Not bad actually.
Anyway, something happen recently.
I'm quite cool about being single for quite some time already.
I'm actually beginning to enjoy it.
But, not tonight.
After we talked in MSN, actually gave me quite some thoughts.
Hoping to meet him, but in the same time afraid being emo.
Brought along alot of worries and hope to operate the flight to Penang.
All i got is TEARS and ANGER.
Gave me empty promises that you will LOVE TO MEET?!
Bullshit la...
Not even inform me that you are not coming.
To be honest, i'm totally cool about this.
I'm not disappointed the fact that we are not meeting.
I just very pissed off by his email.
How can he be so selfish?!
When he was emo, he can just come and blast all to me.
But, when he is feeling OK, he asked me not to be misunderstand on what he said.
The best part is, he think i'm CHANGED to a better person.
BUT...
He don't think i'm being the REAL me!
He was WONDER what is REAL in me?!
HELLO~~~
What is your problem?!
I couldn't help but being so bitter.
Instead of cursing over him, i chose to cried out to God.
Tears just can't help but falling...
Thank God for everything had happen.
I read this in Joel Osteen's blog.
'Release and Receive'.
It's a story about a woman released her burden to God.
She actually visualize those 'burden balloons' being release one by one to God.
I'm going to do the same.
I will release my burden to God.
Received a fresh portion of God's strength to face each day.
I just need to kept reminding myself that God's blessing has always in store for my future!!
People don't believe, nevermind.
I know God has done a wonderful things in my life.
Amen! Thank you, Jesus.
Thursday, June 17, 2010
Why God create Wisdom teeth?!
Gosh! I'm in pain!
I just took out my right lower wisdom tooth.
The side effect is...
my face is SWALLOW like pig head.
Fever...
Constantly taking pain killer and antibiotic.
Can't really open my mouth.
I sounded funny with my slur speech.
Guess what?!
I still need to take out the left hand side one in 2 months time.
HELP~~~~
I went to Dr Lim in Penang Dental.
He is the most cheerful and talkative dentist i ever met.
He can continue talk and talk and talk.
Maybe this is his way to distract me from my nervous.
Every movement he do, he will explain to me.
Kind of cool actually.
I got four injection before the dentist pull out my teeth.
Can't you believe it?!
2 on my gum, 1 on my lips and 1 on my tougue.
I felt total numb after the injection.
Then...
The dentist technically 'drill' my teeth into pieces.
He said he will 'cut' them into 4 pieces like birthday cake.
The sound was just CRAZY!!
I guess i will bring my Ipod on my next treatment.
=P
After he 'cut' my wisdom tooth,
he need to pull out the whole root of my tooth.
Before he pull, he said, 'shall we sing happy birthday?!'
Before i ask, "HAR?!'
He pull it out!
Phewww~
Thank God!
Then he said he will become a tailor now.
To stitch my wound.
No pain no pain...
The PAIN only come after 5 hours!!
until now...
T_T
I just took out my right lower wisdom tooth.
The side effect is...
my face is SWALLOW like pig head.
Fever...
Constantly taking pain killer and antibiotic.
Can't really open my mouth.
I sounded funny with my slur speech.
Guess what?!
I still need to take out the left hand side one in 2 months time.
HELP~~~~
I went to Dr Lim in Penang Dental.
He is the most cheerful and talkative dentist i ever met.
He can continue talk and talk and talk.
Maybe this is his way to distract me from my nervous.
Every movement he do, he will explain to me.
Kind of cool actually.
I got four injection before the dentist pull out my teeth.
Can't you believe it?!
2 on my gum, 1 on my lips and 1 on my tougue.
I felt total numb after the injection.
Then...
The dentist technically 'drill' my teeth into pieces.
He said he will 'cut' them into 4 pieces like birthday cake.
The sound was just CRAZY!!
I guess i will bring my Ipod on my next treatment.
=P
After he 'cut' my wisdom tooth,
he need to pull out the whole root of my tooth.
Before he pull, he said, 'shall we sing happy birthday?!'
Before i ask, "HAR?!'
He pull it out!
Phewww~
Thank God!
Then he said he will become a tailor now.
To stitch my wound.
No pain no pain...
The PAIN only come after 5 hours!!
until now...
T_T
Saturday, June 12, 2010
May God Bless Thailand
I just flew to Thailand few days ago.
At first i thought i'm going to stay in the airport hotel.
Ever since the incident in Thailand,
For safety reason, company had putted us in airport hotel.
But, to my surprise, we moved back to the town.
I was little upset.
When we stay in airport hotel, our meal allowance was double.
But this time, everything back to normal.
Including our allowances.
Which is very very little.
*sigh*
I went out to the town to have a look.
So sad, right?!
I was shock when i saw Central World.
I heard this from my purser for this flight.
He said, everybody complain about moving back to the old hotel because of the allowances.
BUT
I'm so glad that we had moved back to the old hotel.
I asked him, WHY??
He said, we are not happy because we didn't get more allowance.
But, have you ever think of the people who are working or running business in town area?!
They already lost lots of money and property because of the incident.
If we stop staying in the town,
no tourist spend money in the town.
What will happen to them?!
WAAAA!!
Suddenly, i felt i was being so selfish...
only cared about myself, not thinking for others.
I saw this interesting tree in one of the mall.
Wishes from people around the world.
I had wrote my wish for Thailand also.
MAY GOD BLESS THAILAND!
At first i thought i'm going to stay in the airport hotel.
Ever since the incident in Thailand,
For safety reason, company had putted us in airport hotel.
But, to my surprise, we moved back to the town.
I was little upset.
When we stay in airport hotel, our meal allowance was double.
But this time, everything back to normal.
Including our allowances.
Which is very very little.
*sigh*
I went out to the town to have a look.
So sad, right?!
I was shock when i saw Central World.
I heard this from my purser for this flight.
He said, everybody complain about moving back to the old hotel because of the allowances.
BUT
I'm so glad that we had moved back to the old hotel.
I asked him, WHY??
He said, we are not happy because we didn't get more allowance.
But, have you ever think of the people who are working or running business in town area?!
They already lost lots of money and property because of the incident.
If we stop staying in the town,
no tourist spend money in the town.
What will happen to them?!
WAAAA!!
Suddenly, i felt i was being so selfish...
only cared about myself, not thinking for others.
I saw this interesting tree in one of the mall.
Wishes from people around the world.
I had wrote my wish for Thailand also.
MAY GOD BLESS THAILAND!
Saturday, May 29, 2010
小姑还是走了。。。
今天一下机，就打给爸爸。
爸爸本来还想隐瞒，说小姑还在昏迷。
可是，我在电话里，已经听到念经打斋的声音。
我知道小姑还是走了 T_T
那种永远失去一个亲人的感受真的很难过。
很难想象不会再在小姑的面包店见到他。
新年不会再见收到他的红包。
我有怪自己。。。
如果我和小姑的感情好一点，
结果会不会不一样?!
如果我知道小姑有病，劝他去看医生，
结果会不会不一样？！
如果我有传福音给小姑，
结果会不会不一样？！
可是没有那么多‘如果’。
对不起，小姑，我没有回去送你。
我不想去你的丧礼。
我不想对你的回忆里，有这一幕。
只想停留在面包店里，阿嘛家里。
小姑，你见到阿嘛了吗？
你走了过后，你会去那里？
你安心的走吧！
但愿我们还会再见。
我会想念你的。
爸爸本来还想隐瞒，说小姑还在昏迷。
可是，我在电话里，已经听到念经打斋的声音。
我知道小姑还是走了 T_T
那种永远失去一个亲人的感受真的很难过。
很难想象不会再在小姑的面包店见到他。
新年不会再见收到他的红包。
我有怪自己。。。
如果我和小姑的感情好一点，
结果会不会不一样?!
如果我知道小姑有病，劝他去看医生，
结果会不会不一样？！
如果我有传福音给小姑，
结果会不会不一样？！
可是没有那么多‘如果’。
对不起，小姑，我没有回去送你。
我不想去你的丧礼。
我不想对你的回忆里，有这一幕。
只想停留在面包店里，阿嘛家里。
小姑，你见到阿嘛了吗？
你走了过后，你会去那里？
你安心的走吧！
但愿我们还会再见。
我会想念你的。
小姑，你要活下去
26 May 2010 Brisbane, Australia
真的很突然。从来都不知道小姑的身体有问题。或许，小姑自己也不知道。
收到爸的来电，说小姑入院了，已经昏迷不醒。
报告检验出，小姑的脑里长了一个瘤。
由于，那颗瘤的比例是脑的1/4大，导致很多的神经线被压着，导致脑死。
一直以来，我和爸爸的家人都没有比妈妈那边的来得亲。
可能是因为在我们小时候，家里的经济出现了状况，爸爸的家人给过我们脸色看.
所以，长大以后，也不想跟他们来往。
我一直以来都不喜欢厕所，
甚至，可以说是有一点恐惧。
那是因为在小时候，当我做错事时，
我会被反锁在一间伸手不见五指的厕所里。
记忆中，都有被阿嘛和姑姑反锁过。
我和小姑有一个共同点。
那就是，都很疼爱阿嘛。
以往，阿嘛一有需要，一定会打电话给我和小姑。
每一个星期六，我和小姑都会轮流带阿嘛去吃早餐和买日用品。
自从阿嘛走了，我和小姑的共同点也没了。
也很少来往了。只会在过时过节才见面。
现在我很怕电话响，或有短讯。很怕收到坏消息。
虽然，医生已经证实小姑脑死。
可是，我还没放弃。除了祷告，我真的不知道还可以为小姑做些什么。
人真的要到失去了才学会珍惜吗？！
我有后悔，自己没有和小姑建立好关系。
小姑的一对子女还在念小学，这个时候还需要母亲。小姑，你一定要醒过来。
真的很突然。从来都不知道小姑的身体有问题。或许，小姑自己也不知道。
收到爸的来电，说小姑入院了，已经昏迷不醒。
报告检验出，小姑的脑里长了一个瘤。
由于，那颗瘤的比例是脑的1/4大，导致很多的神经线被压着，导致脑死。
一直以来，我和爸爸的家人都没有比妈妈那边的来得亲。
可能是因为在我们小时候，家里的经济出现了状况，爸爸的家人给过我们脸色看.
所以，长大以后，也不想跟他们来往。
我一直以来都不喜欢厕所，
甚至，可以说是有一点恐惧。
那是因为在小时候，当我做错事时，
我会被反锁在一间伸手不见五指的厕所里。
记忆中，都有被阿嘛和姑姑反锁过。
我和小姑有一个共同点。
那就是，都很疼爱阿嘛。
以往，阿嘛一有需要，一定会打电话给我和小姑。
每一个星期六，我和小姑都会轮流带阿嘛去吃早餐和买日用品。
自从阿嘛走了，我和小姑的共同点也没了。
也很少来往了。只会在过时过节才见面。
现在我很怕电话响，或有短讯。很怕收到坏消息。
虽然，医生已经证实小姑脑死。
可是，我还没放弃。除了祷告，我真的不知道还可以为小姑做些什么。
人真的要到失去了才学会珍惜吗？！
我有后悔，自己没有和小姑建立好关系。
小姑的一对子女还在念小学，这个时候还需要母亲。小姑，你一定要醒过来。
Monday, May 24, 2010
牙套记 Part 2
Are you ready??
Because i about to show you the most ugly pictures of mine.
Please do not be afraid after you see all my pictures.
It's just A LITTLE BIT ugly...
Ta Dang~~
Did i made your day?! =P
LOL!
Let me tell you the process...
They 'open' my mouth with this round plastic thingy.
So that, it will be easier for them to put on the braces for me.
Next, brackets were placed on my teeth.
They used the UV light to make the brackets stick on my teeth.
Then...It's the most painful part.
In my case, i need not to take out any of my teeth.
BUT...
I need to do drilling!!!
That means, the dentist will drill my teeth to create space.
not THAT many teeth need to drill la..
ONLY 8!!
Hahahahaha!! Madness!!
8 tooth need to be drill!!
Wohoo!!
*hurt*
This picture is before the dentist put the wire through the brackets.
Usually the conventional type of braces need to put a rubber band around the brackets to hold the wire.
But, mine is Damon system, no rubber band.
The bracket itself is a clip
Just to clip on the wire.
That's the whole process of application.
I feel absolutely nothing after the application.
No pain, nothing.
Just many foreign object in my mouth.
Hmmm...that's the good sign.
BUT...
The PAIN only come after 2 hours..
WAAAA!!!
My tooth became so tight.
My gum became so sore.
Well, eventually i got used to it.
My next appointment will be after 60 days.
I wonder how is it...
Because i about to show you the most ugly pictures of mine.
Please do not be afraid after you see all my pictures.
It's just A LITTLE BIT ugly...
Ta Dang~~
Did i made your day?! =P
LOL!
Let me tell you the process...
They 'open' my mouth with this round plastic thingy.
So that, it will be easier for them to put on the braces for me.
Next, brackets were placed on my teeth.
They used the UV light to make the brackets stick on my teeth.
Then...It's the most painful part.
In my case, i need not to take out any of my teeth.
BUT...
I need to do drilling!!!
That means, the dentist will drill my teeth to create space.
not THAT many teeth need to drill la..
ONLY 8!!
Hahahahaha!! Madness!!
8 tooth need to be drill!!
Wohoo!!
*hurt*
This picture is before the dentist put the wire through the brackets.
Usually the conventional type of braces need to put a rubber band around the brackets to hold the wire.
But, mine is Damon system, no rubber band.
The bracket itself is a clip
Just to clip on the wire.
That's the whole process of application.
I feel absolutely nothing after the application.
No pain, nothing.
Just many foreign object in my mouth.
Hmmm...that's the good sign.
BUT...
The PAIN only come after 2 hours..
WAAAA!!!
My tooth became so tight.
My gum became so sore.
Well, eventually i got used to it.
My next appointment will be after 60 days.
I wonder how is it...
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