今天一下机，就打给爸爸。
爸爸本来还想隐瞒，说小姑还在昏迷。
可是，我在电话里，已经听到念经打斋的声音。
我知道小姑还是走了 T_T
那种永远失去一个亲人的感受真的很难过。
很难想象不会再在小姑的面包店见到他。
新年不会再见收到他的红包。
我有怪自己。。。
如果我和小姑的感情好一点，
结果会不会不一样?!
如果我知道小姑有病，劝他去看医生，
结果会不会不一样？！
如果我有传福音给小姑，
结果会不会不一样？！
可是没有那么多‘如果’。
对不起，小姑，我没有回去送你。
我不想去你的丧礼。
我不想对你的回忆里，有这一幕。
只想停留在面包店里，阿嘛家里。
小姑，你见到阿嘛了吗？
你走了过后，你会去那里？
你安心的走吧！
但愿我们还会再见。
我会想念你的。
Saturday, May 29, 2010
小姑，你要活下去
26 May 2010 Brisbane, Australia
真的很突然。从来都不知道小姑的身体有问题。或许，小姑自己也不知道。
收到爸的来电，说小姑入院了，已经昏迷不醒。
报告检验出，小姑的脑里长了一个瘤。
由于，那颗瘤的比例是脑的1/4大，导致很多的神经线被压着，导致脑死。
一直以来，我和爸爸的家人都没有比妈妈那边的来得亲。
可能是因为在我们小时候，家里的经济出现了状况，爸爸的家人给过我们脸色看.
所以，长大以后，也不想跟他们来往。
我一直以来都不喜欢厕所，
甚至，可以说是有一点恐惧。
那是因为在小时候，当我做错事时，
我会被反锁在一间伸手不见五指的厕所里。
记忆中，都有被阿嘛和姑姑反锁过。
我和小姑有一个共同点。
那就是，都很疼爱阿嘛。
以往，阿嘛一有需要，一定会打电话给我和小姑。
每一个星期六，我和小姑都会轮流带阿嘛去吃早餐和买日用品。
自从阿嘛走了，我和小姑的共同点也没了。
也很少来往了。只会在过时过节才见面。
现在我很怕电话响，或有短讯。很怕收到坏消息。
虽然，医生已经证实小姑脑死。
可是，我还没放弃。除了祷告，我真的不知道还可以为小姑做些什么。
人真的要到失去了才学会珍惜吗？！
我有后悔，自己没有和小姑建立好关系。
小姑的一对子女还在念小学，这个时候还需要母亲。小姑，你一定要醒过来。
真的很突然。从来都不知道小姑的身体有问题。或许，小姑自己也不知道。
收到爸的来电，说小姑入院了，已经昏迷不醒。
报告检验出，小姑的脑里长了一个瘤。
由于，那颗瘤的比例是脑的1/4大，导致很多的神经线被压着，导致脑死。
一直以来，我和爸爸的家人都没有比妈妈那边的来得亲。
可能是因为在我们小时候，家里的经济出现了状况，爸爸的家人给过我们脸色看.
所以，长大以后，也不想跟他们来往。
我一直以来都不喜欢厕所，
甚至，可以说是有一点恐惧。
那是因为在小时候，当我做错事时，
我会被反锁在一间伸手不见五指的厕所里。
记忆中，都有被阿嘛和姑姑反锁过。
我和小姑有一个共同点。
那就是，都很疼爱阿嘛。
以往，阿嘛一有需要，一定会打电话给我和小姑。
每一个星期六，我和小姑都会轮流带阿嘛去吃早餐和买日用品。
自从阿嘛走了，我和小姑的共同点也没了。
也很少来往了。只会在过时过节才见面。
现在我很怕电话响，或有短讯。很怕收到坏消息。
虽然，医生已经证实小姑脑死。
可是，我还没放弃。除了祷告，我真的不知道还可以为小姑做些什么。
人真的要到失去了才学会珍惜吗？！
我有后悔，自己没有和小姑建立好关系。
小姑的一对子女还在念小学，这个时候还需要母亲。小姑，你一定要醒过来。
Monday, May 24, 2010
牙套记 Part 2
Are you ready??
Because i about to show you the most ugly pictures of mine.
Please do not be afraid after you see all my pictures.
It's just A LITTLE BIT ugly...
Ta Dang~~
Did i made your day?! =P
LOL!
Let me tell you the process...
They 'open' my mouth with this round plastic thingy.
So that, it will be easier for them to put on the braces for me.
Next, brackets were placed on my teeth.
They used the UV light to make the brackets stick on my teeth.
Then...It's the most painful part.
In my case, i need not to take out any of my teeth.
BUT...
I need to do drilling!!!
That means, the dentist will drill my teeth to create space.
not THAT many teeth need to drill la..
ONLY 8!!
Hahahahaha!! Madness!!
8 tooth need to be drill!!
Wohoo!!
*hurt*
This picture is before the dentist put the wire through the brackets.
Usually the conventional type of braces need to put a rubber band around the brackets to hold the wire.
But, mine is Damon system, no rubber band.
The bracket itself is a clip
Just to clip on the wire.
That's the whole process of application.
I feel absolutely nothing after the application.
No pain, nothing.
Just many foreign object in my mouth.
Hmmm...that's the good sign.
BUT...
The PAIN only come after 2 hours..
WAAAA!!!
My tooth became so tight.
My gum became so sore.
Well, eventually i got used to it.
My next appointment will be after 60 days.
I wonder how is it...
Because i about to show you the most ugly pictures of mine.
Please do not be afraid after you see all my pictures.
It's just A LITTLE BIT ugly...
Ta Dang~~
Did i made your day?! =P
LOL!
Let me tell you the process...
They 'open' my mouth with this round plastic thingy.
So that, it will be easier for them to put on the braces for me.
Next, brackets were placed on my teeth.
They used the UV light to make the brackets stick on my teeth.
Then...It's the most painful part.
In my case, i need not to take out any of my teeth.
BUT...
I need to do drilling!!!
That means, the dentist will drill my teeth to create space.
not THAT many teeth need to drill la..
ONLY 8!!
Hahahahaha!! Madness!!
8 tooth need to be drill!!
Wohoo!!
*hurt*
This picture is before the dentist put the wire through the brackets.
Usually the conventional type of braces need to put a rubber band around the brackets to hold the wire.
But, mine is Damon system, no rubber band.
The bracket itself is a clip
Just to clip on the wire.
That's the whole process of application.
I feel absolutely nothing after the application.
No pain, nothing.
Just many foreign object in my mouth.
Hmmm...that's the good sign.
BUT...
The PAIN only come after 2 hours..
WAAAA!!!
My tooth became so tight.
My gum became so sore.
Well, eventually i got used to it.
My next appointment will be after 60 days.
I wonder how is it...
Saturday, May 22, 2010
10th day anniversary
ta dang~~
Today is my 10th day anniversary with my 'good friend', DAMON!
-___-!!!
Sweat leh?! hahahahaha!
Anyway, i can slowly eat now.
No more PORRIDGE!
No more SOYA DRINK!
Wohoo!!
Can eat SOLID food now. =)
Even though...
Took me longer to finish a meal...
A piece of salmon cut into 10 small pieces...
Can only bite slowly with my back teeth...
But...
Still, SOLID food weh!!!
=P
Actually, being not able to eat many types of the food is really troublesome.
Thank God for great and understanding friends around me.
They were being very caring.
They tried not to order things that i can't eat.
Waited for me to brush my teeth after meal.
Thanks, my friends.
Really appreciated.
Today is my 10th day anniversary with my 'good friend', DAMON!
-___-!!!
Sweat leh?! hahahahaha!
Anyway, i can slowly eat now.
No more PORRIDGE!
No more SOYA DRINK!
Wohoo!!
Can eat SOLID food now. =)
Even though...
Took me longer to finish a meal...
A piece of salmon cut into 10 small pieces...
Can only bite slowly with my back teeth...
But...
Still, SOLID food weh!!!
=P
Actually, being not able to eat many types of the food is really troublesome.
Thank God for great and understanding friends around me.
They were being very caring.
They tried not to order things that i can't eat.
Waited for me to brush my teeth after meal.
Thanks, my friends.
Really appreciated.
Thursday, May 13, 2010
牙套记
Guess what?! I finally fulfil my 'dream' which is putting on braces!!
People often ask me why do i need to wear braces, your teeth is OK what?!
My answer will be... Emmm, I just want to experience the process.
-___-!!!
i know, you must be sweating right now. Hehehehehe!!
But seriously, i been wanted to wear braces since secondary school.
I even went and Q-up for the government one, which only cost RM500.
Too bad, by the time i got it, i need to leave to Penang for University.
During that time, wearing braces in private sector is way too expensive to bear.
Since my company allow me to wear braces.
Very rare that airlines allow their crew to wear braces.
I feel thankful about it..
But in the same time, i heard feedback like...
No matter how well you groom yourself, once you wear braces, all GONE!!
i seriously think those who wear braces shouldn't be in the service line.
-___-!!! waaa!! So discriminate hor?!
Of cause i don't listen to their feedback and went straight for my braces also.
=P
The process is pretty GELI.
to be continue...
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